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Paar Chanaa De

“Our maker beholds in agony, the repercussions of his dastardly deed - to have made us as one soul, divided into two beings, separated by an unfathomable distance. He weeps for us Aa’isha…”
It comes again, the numbness in his being, a grief so immense, he has no choice but to lie down paralysed on the cold hard ground, clutching his letter in a wincing vice, hidden from sight. The stars, lights, quiet and winter offer him no solace, cold winds freezing his tears. A broken heart can be healed, but how do you heal a broken soul, so tormented that it disintegrates reading its own words?
Suddenly he feels a deep rumbling, emanating from the bosom of the earth, and now the sky is awash with burning white light. “This is it” he wonders, “it’s too much even for him now.” He relaxes his body, eager to meet his maker, and the letter flutters away. The next second, it’s all over and he sits up dazed and confused, trying to make sense of what happened. He feels his hand clutching empty air, and …

Bestill

Reign in thy tempest, my heart!
The sun can’t help storm-chasers.

Provoke they will, the unpleased.
Bestill regardless! thy duty is to love.

Seduce they will, the divided.
Bestill regardless! thy duty is to bridge.

Destroy they will, the departed.
Bestill regardless! thy duty is to honour.

Repel it will, the crowds and cacophony.
Bestill regardless! one holds thine hand.

Capture it will, the solitude of books.
Bestill regardless! a beloved awaits.

Bestill my heart! Halt your pursuit!
For happiness, chases thee.

Ye Heedless Imbecile!

Timeless, I'm born, blessed to live generations! Where once decades passed in the blink of my eyes, your indifference now makes these days last eons for me. Why do you punish me so?

It was not always so, you know. I was more than an ornament to you once. You seem to have forgotten that when the world left you behind, I stayed, your only companion. It was I who swallowed your silent tears whole, brought you sleep in your insomnia, solace in your malaise, peace in your vexation. But, even in this newfound callousness of yours, I just can't bring myself to be vengeful! I thought it would be easy to let this disregard poison and infuriate my being, and one day perchance go down in flames, freed from being a useless ornament, and to my fathers who came millennia before you. Alas! it isn't!

I see you watch the big black hole in the wall, the ludicrous thing a sorry excuse for a bard who shows derivatives of the epics the masters once preserved in me. Oh, how they turn in their …

A Parting

Look, as the red sun retires;
Dying light heralds a parting!
The long day draws to a close,
And ere I go, I wish to hold you!
The hollow of my chest gapes,
Ever growing to a dark chasm!
Afraid I am of the melancholy,
That grips me in its vices so!
An east wind rises, buffeting me,
Chilling to the very bone! My Love!
Come! Make haste, ride swift,
Embrace me and deliver my soul,
For such torment, it cannot bear!
A parting, ’tis so, but come fare me well!
Kiss me so the heart may beat,
Evermore in your desire and love!
Bless me, so the stars shine ere I go,
And I promise, a rising sun I’ll bring to thee!

Boyhood in Ghazals

An enviable fortune it’d be, If only all those questions, Those dramatic exclamations, About my age, came with a penny!
This repute, not just on actions, But is founded on my playlist, Filled with “Oldies” to say the least; Justified then seems their reactions.
However this I now make clear, It’s not just the soft melodies, Jubilant thoughts, poignant tragedies, But their first memories, that are dear.
A boyhood spent in ghazals, Lazy Sundays on father’s lap, When innocence wasn’t entrapped, And life was free from troubles.
Hence, “Main zindagi..” when Rafi says, It reminds me of father’s advice, Of the strength to fight life’s vice, And of the promise of good in coming days.
Sure, Netflix now rules my Sundays, However, just one note, word, rhyme, Cues nostalgia of a long lost time,
Of ageless songs and my golden days!

Alienation

A solitary existence, diminishing, Slumped on an isle, woefully eyeing, The shore whence it all began - A solo sailing for soul searching, Respite from all voices but my own. Meddled by currents, winds, tides, Deserting light, fate beyond reckoning; Perpetrators they were in my wrecking, But innocent they’re in my current plight; 'Tis not for want of favorable winds, Currents, tides or stars, that I’m marooned; 'Tis for a line that I yearn, to pull me in. Rowing, swimming, I may brave the gap, However, the last league will defeat me. 'Tis then when I need a lifeline to hold, But who stands ashore to cast it? One fights her own battles, too weary; One so noble, who’d risk everything, Knowing well, of lacking strength; I see them, and would rather stay Than trouble them to bail me out. Others? Those who took affront to my sojourn, Mistaking my respite for desertion, Proclaiming hence all relations broken? I’d take my chances here, subjecting To fate and cunning, my life, th…

The Cat

No parent should have to bury their child.
"An innocent soul now rests among angels", read the epitaph. Shrouded in a haze of grief and alcohol, his eyes stared at the tombstone as the early morning dew trickled down its pale surface. And yet, no tears rolled down his dry, bloodshot, dead eyes, for his pain was matched by a fiery, maddening, hell raising rage. As he sipped the last drop, the empty bottle tipped his fury; lashing out, he flung it into the lake, at the swans his daughter so loved.
Staggering back to his car, he slumped behind the wheel and drove up to the cliff. It was his first Sunday alone at the top in a long time; after his daughter’s birth to be exact. Gazing at the vista the height offered, he prayed his last prayer – his daughter, wherever she was, may she had this and other vistas to enjoy, the rising suns and pretty twilights. And then, he jumped.
Eyes closed, he waited for the crushing embrace of the earth which, to his surprise, never came. Aggravat…